This section chronicles my life from the day my family pulled up to our new home in San Diego (in our piece of shit Ford Aerostar) in June of 1996, until September of 1999.
Most of these stories have to do with my adolescent struggle to make friends, to understand myself, to deal with all of my fears, the bullies who pushed me around, the assholes I wanted to accept me, the girls I dreamt of sticking my dick in, and the shame I felt all day every day for never standing up for myself.
Unlike every other section of my life, this one is not loaded with humor and awesomeness. (It's got some) This section will never be the most well received section of my writing, but it's important for me to write the truth about what I dealt with, and how I became the person I am today, so that others who have gone through the same thing can relate to me, and feel hope.
This section is about weakness, struggle, and ultimately strength.
I want everyone to believe, like I do, that all the strength they will ever need to do anything lies deep within them. They must dig to find it, yank it out, and never let it go.
At the end of this era I eliminated my belief in God, and my dependence on anyone or anything else to make me feel better when I'm down.
This section has adolescent humor, (mostly my valorous attempts to get a nut off) adolescent struggle, and adolescent redemption.
"We all have a little bitch in our hearts, we just can't let that bitch boss us around"
-Donny O'Malley
My stories from this era will likely be about:
Being the new kid in school and attempting to fit in.
Being a white kid who acted black with a strong Queen's accent in San Diego.
Discovering and fine tuning masterbation with a 14.4k modem and mom's Oil of Olay.
My first french kiss, when I got a boner with basketball shorts on, no underwear, and precum all over myself.
Getting punked by a skinhead and his skinhead friends for standing up for my little brother.
Realizing I was the most sheltered kid in the entire school.
Getting rejected by girls, all the time. (Even though they said I was cute. WTF?)
Trying to fit in the with "cool kids" and being pushed away, bullied, and disrespected daily.
Being the worst player out of 40 on the football team, and the harassment that came with it.
Becoming increasingly timid and fearful each day of sophomore year, until I was too scared to do anything I really wanted.
Becoming a bigger and easier target for bullying until every day was miserable.
Considering suicide, resenting myself for even considering it, and then finally pulling my head out of my ass and forcing myself to face my fears.
Accepting the fact that if I let fear rule my life, I would never be happy.
Setting a goal for myself, dreaming of it every day, working towards it every day, and making it a reality. (Thus changing my life)
Finding my inner strength, and my belief in myself.
Most of these stories have to do with my adolescent struggle to make friends, to understand myself, to deal with all of my fears, the bullies who pushed me around, the assholes I wanted to accept me, the girls I dreamt of sticking my dick in, and the shame I felt all day every day for never standing up for myself.
Unlike every other section of my life, this one is not loaded with humor and awesomeness. (It's got some) This section will never be the most well received section of my writing, but it's important for me to write the truth about what I dealt with, and how I became the person I am today, so that others who have gone through the same thing can relate to me, and feel hope.
This section is about weakness, struggle, and ultimately strength.
I want everyone to believe, like I do, that all the strength they will ever need to do anything lies deep within them. They must dig to find it, yank it out, and never let it go.
At the end of this era I eliminated my belief in God, and my dependence on anyone or anything else to make me feel better when I'm down.
This section has adolescent humor, (mostly my valorous attempts to get a nut off) adolescent struggle, and adolescent redemption.
"We all have a little bitch in our hearts, we just can't let that bitch boss us around"
-Donny O'Malley
My stories from this era will likely be about:
Being the new kid in school and attempting to fit in.
Being a white kid who acted black with a strong Queen's accent in San Diego.
Discovering and fine tuning masterbation with a 14.4k modem and mom's Oil of Olay.
My first french kiss, when I got a boner with basketball shorts on, no underwear, and precum all over myself.
Getting punked by a skinhead and his skinhead friends for standing up for my little brother.
Realizing I was the most sheltered kid in the entire school.
Getting rejected by girls, all the time. (Even though they said I was cute. WTF?)
Trying to fit in the with "cool kids" and being pushed away, bullied, and disrespected daily.
Being the worst player out of 40 on the football team, and the harassment that came with it.
Becoming increasingly timid and fearful each day of sophomore year, until I was too scared to do anything I really wanted.
Becoming a bigger and easier target for bullying until every day was miserable.
Considering suicide, resenting myself for even considering it, and then finally pulling my head out of my ass and forcing myself to face my fears.
Accepting the fact that if I let fear rule my life, I would never be happy.
Setting a goal for myself, dreaming of it every day, working towards it every day, and making it a reality. (Thus changing my life)
Finding my inner strength, and my belief in myself.